Somewhere ♥;

hands,
feeling soft when touched.
will girls accept a rough hand?
i was thinking on my way t grannie hse..
ppl always say hold the person u love hand.
its so smooth and soft..
i was think if i ever get t hold his hand
how will the feel be like?
rough?
i once saw his hand..
it was rough
how i wish i can hold on so that this pair of hands gets well.
hmm.. im just over thinking la..
how can i ever hold these hands.
someone has taken care of alr ma..
so hmm there's no place for me.
well drips drips.
its been long, he nv did call..
maybe he thinks that even he call we also nth t chat ba..
anw he got his gf can alr ma.. isnt it??
a place i shldnt have enter
now its too late to runn..
hmm.. its just my wishful thinking tat all this is fantasy,
when it ends like a nitemare.
yeah, it makes aperson feel so lonely, so scared.
nv knowing the consequences i got in it again..
stupidity,
is wad i call..
i nv been able t let go
i nv been able t put down
i nv been able t forget
HOW,
somebody pls direct me..):

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no matter wad we become.. 7:59 AM

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

hihi
hmm now doing ppt
LOLs i finished my slides alr..
LOls super easy cann.. hais no stress
anw today UT really gone case..
well don care alr..
Ltr maybe gg grannie hse LOLs.
hmm gilbert!
stop saying 2 months and 2 weeks..
LOLs so sad man..):
hmm anw today another day. (cognitive)
sians. well dhirah not here
and rita came into our grp
HAHA lols she really funny
>.<
LOLs. im motivated by culturefaci blog.
And also repeatedly hear gilbert saying seaview is nice..
he had been telling me since the time i chn my first skin..
wth haha..
but nice! i wont deny it(:
anw i cant find the skin i wann la sad..!
LOLS anw shall inform.
E36K!!
there will be a chalet on the 2nd of june! at east coast area!
Be there aites(: have FUNN(:
5N3!!
There will be a BBQ session on 9th of June!
Pls inform me whether ur can be there anot!
Hope we are able to meet up as a CLASS(:
hmm ytd was really a FUN FUN day(:
hope everyday would be!
anw tml HOPE i go work man!!
im so lackking of $$
*CRIES.
how come=.=
hmm anw hope kumaran give me good news(:
ahhh give up on finding ocean/sea view de skins..
omg..>.<
headache lols..
hmm sians.. wad can i do now!
I DID NOT BRING MY PHONE.
so idiotic.arghh..
sians.
wadever my tot is..
im going into my nonsence again..
i noe im mad..
i noe..
i just cant forget..
i really cant. HOW?
this 2 days, i really missing him..
MISS - to regret the absence or loss of
LOVE - infused with or feeling deep affection or passion
well.. alrite la..
must sidetrack!
stop my nonsence alr!!!
):
hmm okays la..
don wann blogg alr
lazy arhh=XX
okays byebye PPL(:
take cares(:
updated:xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 8:38 PM

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

hihi
today im super earli okays.
dono wad happen
and im lagging of slp!!!
anw i finally done up w the pictures in my blog..
oni left the very song!!!
"somewhere over the rainbow"
piano version..
LOLs hmm hope t learn cannon in D piano full by this week
cos i really loved the song..
haha.. this morning open window player --> cannon in D
so coincidence la..
i was thinking of the song and i get the song..
haha COOL(:
anw hmm i still wondering why am i in sch so damn earli lols>.<
hmm i need chocolates): hais. i dono la. ytd bro talk t me i ignore him on msn...
i appeared offline. i had nth t say t him.
wad share share when u didn even say! i noe im so unreasonable.
yes im a spoilt brat alrite tat just me!
but why not u think.
3yrs of friendship cant compare t 2months of friendship aiya..
nvm la..since things become like tat then like tat lols(:
suan le. WOW today faci super earlli.
LOLs my frens are also v earli too!
hmm haha great lahh(:
faci loves KL=P haha..
LOLs not i bomb de he say de..
haha. LOLs all the shopping malls la.. haha..=XX
anw the faci's is married!! lols haha
COOL so young got married alr..
his wife must be great(:
anw im so sians now..
well waiting for the rest to come and start the lesson..
yeahh isnt my blogg nice!! haha=XX
anw my classmates today sot sot alr haha.. all come tog..>.<
well not all are here now.. but they are earli(: >.<
well now nth much t blog le la..
anw im working on friday and sat hopefully LOLs..
im in need of money LOLs.
shld i work on sunday??
well farid call me if u gg other hotel interview!!(:
haha okays tat all for today's post lahh..
lazy t update again..
anw.. gg grannie hse today(:
my dajiu and xiangxiang here!!(:
hope t see them:D
ijustlovemyblog(:
sometimes i dono wad i miss
sometimes i dono wad shld i say
sometimes i dono why im alone..
these qns are hard t say..
these qns are hard t find
these qns are hard t ans..
yet i think i have it
i think i do not..
imh
imall
immyfrens
immyfamilies
he so near yet i cant reach
chance become so far since everythin ends.
everythin becomes so cold..
well..
恶人！我好想念你！！):
focus girl focus!
hmm okays TATA ppl!! Sayonara(:
thingswillchangeforthebetterforme(:
okays PPL byebye(:
take cares
hope today will be a FINE FINE day for me(:
updated:xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 5:25 PM

hihi
startin again w p on e dairy(:
haha COOL.
anw im angry!!!
really.
wth i just cant believe it la.
u said u tell me everythin.
u dint. and when i ask u abt it.
this attitude is wad i get.
suan le..why must i care anw i also cant care
cos im nobody to __
lols. wadever la..
anw today lesson was kinda boring and
it get more boring after i went for tat talk
LOLs.. its tramatising la..
=.=
anw 2 CE points! worth it la..
LOLs well my class today v funny la.
manicure!
to boys?? haha so funny can..
and i tell ur rayyan fingers are disgusting man>.<
silver paints manicure
omG!!!>.<
cant believe it..
haha the girls are mad la haha=XX
anw today was still alrite compared to other maths lesson..
i think we really did work as a grp ba
see i told ur! its faster rite
hahaXD
well lols tat smelly bully me again!!!
BBBB la u!! X4
u noe BBBB wad rite!! haha
should i say out??
opps=PP
haha no la i wont be SOOO bad for now(:
anw gg stay overnite at chalet??
hmm i dono leh but looks like i have to..
well no choice lols..
i scare i being left out oni..
LOLs i dono wad can i do at the chalet lehh..
weird..=.=
but hope we still have funn!!!
gilbert says : 2months and 2weeks left
ohh hais im so sad canns..
really..+.+
well hope we really make use of these days..!!
play t our fullest okays!
at least E36K has its wonderful and memorable days and experience!!(:
hmm just went home w serena
here im at hm alr..
haha fast rite=)
anw ppl try the M&M indiana jones limited edition MINT choco.
its nice!(: haha LOLs
im eating choco again haha..
stress man..
no la.. for other reasons maybe??
on my way back
with raindrops dripping from the leaves to my head
i've been thinking
[ im e one who touches his heart
not the one whom he wans t be w
in a lifetime...]
well he dint call ytd. yupps i knew it la.
well there's nth much t hope for anyway..
in his heart i maybe stand 1 out of a 100
maybe its even a 1000..
who knows. but im just glad i once stood in his heart(:
well although im devastated now, but i keep telling myself
there's nth t be sad abt isnt it.
at least i got those memories
yupps(:
anw shallnt elaborate.
imahappybeing okays(:
yeah shall be and will be:D
WHAT I NEED TO FIND OUT
does a person really need to hide its feelings,emotions,thinkings?
wads wrong w expressing urself in who u are and not who u act tat u are?
why do people scare being look down on just becos u are not strong enuff?
does tears really signifies failure?
why do tears come when one is sad?
well im really broke now
so waiting for mus good news..
hafeez really help us into shangrila.!
haha lols im so needed a job now!:/
really la.. omg=.=
hais well must 省省省 haha
shall and must!!!(:
加油 to me man!!
okays la nth much t blog abt alr!(:
blog nxt time ba(:
seeyas..byebye
take cares(:
updated:xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 1:01 AM

Sunday, May 25, 2008

hihi
LOLS PPLE!
ur noe tat sakae sushi the price of one plate has increased??
wth.. omg.. so sad and scary la..
last time $1.9++
NOW $2.29++
omg omg.
sians diao cann so ex liao
hmm means no buffet cannot eat alr..
sians. anw today 26.05.08
hmm science today
sad la really..
anw today sci really makes me headache la
serious headache..
hell im sad.
cos i dint do well in my presentations.
i felt i done v badly..
hais.. so sad..
anw got ppl come see us.. MR foo.
just graduated from NUS. lols
quite shuai la lols..
shikin they all keep flirting la haha=XX
anw went lunch and noe who i saw!!!
CHENCHEN.. omg.. i super long dint contact him and see him..
wonder if he see me??
hope he did..
imh la haha=X
anw thanks rita! teach me how t chn blogskin..
COOL man haha i can chn whenever wherever i wann
omg! so cool wahaha..
LOLS anw went t amk just now w lj..
haha went t buy smth..
and went t eat fish and co.
wth.. abit regret eating tat..
NONO not becos not nice..
its becos too EX
浪费钱..=.=
haha LOLs. anw COOL la. funn
and srys pamm..
u noe can alr..
LOLs. but since u noe wad i buying hope u not disappointed w wad i had bought
cos its small really..
im so srys.
anw im so happy tat we are back on our dairies (:
and just now talk t sr(:
oni thing left t make my day more better is just a call from him...
hmm guess he wont call de la..
wont.. i noe it.. hais well don care la.
LET GO MAN.
let go pls..
alrite la shall not blog more alr.. byebye
nites ppl.. take cares..
updated:xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 11:23 PM

Saturday, May 24, 2008

hihi
hmm just came back from cyclin..
goshh im so giddy now..
haha but cool!
i wann to 减肥！
wahaha..
LOLs im so desperate t 减肥 can..
LOLs. haha im so siao la.
BAKA.
LOLs hmm today nv go amk
stayed at hm help sheng do notes for his history chapters.
LOLs im hardworking sehh..
hmm tml need to study for cognitive le..
and enterprise also..
goshh this time cant flunk la.
wth.. so fast. one test after another.
so terrible so scary..
today dint go amk.. dint go dint go..
hais one day pass so fast..
anw he called me.
my bro ans and he cupped the phone lols.
i called back u noe wher he is
in e toilet.
wth=.=
hmm.. chat Abit oni.. 4mins
sians..
i think im been avoiding amk..
maybe becos i don dare t see him
or maybe becos i wann him to call me?
am i nuts?
i guess so.. hais.
things are so confusing..
anw
times is perishable.
once its past it is impossible to return..
so PPL. pls treasure and cherish wad u have now.
u may not noe wad will happen..
and when u have lost, u will regret for it..
well today is sunday..
stupid la wann go cycle then rain..
wth.. LOLs..
sians. nvm lols
anw at nite sushi??
uhh i wann laa...
hais.. but its expensive LOLs...
i wann go korea.. eat the kimchi rice.
LOLs wth.. droolling*
HAHA.. hmm sians. my bro they all wann play CS also la..
play w bot.l LOLs not funn de..
anw sians. must study for UT!!!
haha JIAYOUs JIAYOUs!(:
hmm Great lucks t serena on monday aites(:
加油! gambat'e aites(:
JUst went t sushi w my family..
WHEE haha.. LOLs COOL nice
and PPL don eat the 纳豆sushi..
cos its seriously not nice.. omg
LOLs hmm sians now at hm alr..
tml wann go amk maybe?
haha LOLs shall see(:
okays enuff of update le la. Ciaos..(:
4mins is little.
but 4mins is precious
everyday 4mins
could add up t bigg time
i noe i need this time
i wish this time nv ends..
updated: xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 3:08 AM

Thursday, May 22, 2008

hihi
goshh holidays comin!! cool man..
haha anw PPL nxt week there's 2 UTs one is on
TUES (cognitive)
THURS (enterprise)
sians rite?!
haha holiday coming alr and yet there UT test.
and i need to study for this one lols.
if not fail nxt yr must retake.
我才不要勒
lols haha.. hmm anw today enterprise and i haven did my hmwork yet.
and now he's here so earli..
so doom la goshh..
im dead..+.+
helpss*
anw after sch gg play pool w E36K for a while and go hm le..
i think my bro at hm waiting for me go cycle..
LOLs don have event wann event.
now got event too busy..
very cropped up lehh..
omg!. anw i just view culture grade for this week.
HAHA. i got an B but better than don have,
i tot i v quiet tat lesson so scare i got C but no..
haha just lovemyculturefaci lahhs.
lols im craapp..
hmm enterprise i cant view wad he gives me lehh..
so sad. i wish i get an A..
hais nowadays faci's expectations like higher.
v hard t catch up lols.
how sia??
i dint get an A for like 2 weeks le.
hmm all Bs..
goshh im so dead la..
well wad shld i do now..
i did not do my hmwork and nobody's here t help me..
omg.hmm guess al e hardworking's one will do de la..
im so shit up alr..
LOLs yeahh thanks haida..
she taught me how to do just in time haha!!(:
happies(:
at least im not the oni one not handing up..
phewws..
everyone do alrite(: ask haida teach..
she's account pro lols(:
lols today no nid do presentation..
LOLs we finish our ppt so earli la.. b4 the the second break out..
LOLs but now tell us no need present..
hais wasted. but COOL haha(:
anw we keep playing CS arhh..
and new ppl join in.. COOL.
went lunch w vetri fathil gilbert datul selina rita
COOL haha they so funny la..
first time man go lunch w them(:
after sch CS?
hmm i think so? shall see arhh..
lols haha..(:
anw rita did manicure for my right hand haha. COOL
lols and she taught me cannon in D PIANO!!
haha omg. iLit haha..
and i hope i wont forget when i reach home la.. so goshh haha..
THanks RITA!(:
im so slacking at library cafe' now..
LOLs nth much t do
most of them also using laptop play games..
sians.=.=
LOLs. i dono why things have come to become like tat.
if im in wrong im so srys
united is wad we call.
ununited is wad we are.
well lets just talk abt this.(:
relax and lets chill(:
iLuguys(:
enuff of this update alr(:
byebye pple
take cares(:
updated:xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 5:40 PM

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

hihi
today cognitive lesson today.
well today super!! less ppl lols..
=.= dono why..
and those who come regretted coming..
haha today's a boring day..
a very boring one.
and im having this headache la..
so irritating haax..
anw my CS nick :LOSTgl02(:
is not lostgirl lols..is not! haha..
hmm well nth much t update actually so hmm.. off for now(:
ltr gg ah ma hse(:
i wanna be a happy being!!!(:
believe me!(:
have funn w class today for CS session(:
tml gg for a pool session..
but not too long aites(:
CHEER UP everyday(: and stay AWAKE!
haha..well seeyou tml(:
ijustlovemyculturefaci!(:
ciaos pple(:
updated:xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 10:36 PM

i cried when i update my blog..
thats how much i missed u..

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no matter wad we become.. 10:32 PM

hihi
珍惜，对爱情来说是很重要。
信任，对爱情里来说是很重要。
well today culture..
haha today's funn man.! haha
AND
AND
AND
culture teacher super super shuai can..
goshh...
I love him la.. hahA=X
我发花痴咯
goshh..
haha anw today got new students.
second yr de. LOLs
his name is Noppol.
hmm well class wad u think abt him?
yeah i also feel the same..=.=
hmm okays well today lesson not too bad..
abt ballet haha..
hmm guys care t try ballet??
haha COOL de lols=P
hmm nth much t blog abt today..
anw had lunch w yp bd and p
haha had funn and we took lots of pic..
oni tat after sch class time again haha=X
but lesson today ended late also..
LOLs hmm played CS w them..
my CS nick : LOSTgl02(:
in e end wann go home alr gilbert and his fren shawn still stayed back and play 1 vs 1 lols..
HAHA so lame..
and finally get to take pic w rita and haida(:
hmm i was thinking,
im finally controling myself le?
well i dono?
hmm last time i will really automatically msg him.
go sch go hm go out
LOLs now, maybe is cannot so controlled myself but at least i can control ma
so alr v good le.(:
but i still miss him alot.
我想你
inu
imu
sometimes i wonder if i think of u, will u think of me?
precious memories deep in my heart.
don wanna let u go..
don wanna let this go..
staring at the sky,
thinking of the times when i saw a sky of stars..
with ur voice hanging in my ears..
now..
everythings's changed
i no longer hear your voice when i see a pool of stars..
i no longer hear your voice before i slp..
i no longer hear your voice when im down..
i no longer hear your voice when im happy..
i no longer hear your voice when im stupid..
i no longer hear you calling me "傻的"
no longer the 傻瓜
no longer the 恶人
no longer the amk i wish t go
*cries
恶人。
我还有好多好多想跟你说，
我好想跟你说，你很好。
我好想跟你说，我好好喜欢你。
我好想跟你说，我好难过。
我好想跟你说，我真的好想要你在身边。
我好想跟你说，我以把你当成习惯了。
我好想跟你说，不要离开我。
在这些日子里，好谢谢你那么地对我。
你好好，真的好好。
但你说过，如果早认识我，你会要跟我在一起。
但对我来说，我不想认识你。
你太好了，但也太花心。
我不想再一次又被伤害。
单恋，是多么的痛苦。
但也好过两方都喜欢，因为最痛苦的事，
喜欢彼此，但不能在一起。
那是最痛苦的。
现在心情好糟，心好痛。
好想快点把你忘了。
傻瓜！清醒吧。
别傻了。
谢谢你给我的快乐。
虽然段战，但我很开心。
现在还是朋友，但很难，很难面对你。
一直都在希望能回到以前。
以前是，现在也是。
好了。
最后想跟你说，
好好珍惜你的现在，
你的女朋友。
你的朋友。
你的钱。
也希望你过的日子是信服的(:
imu.

well srys today update too much on him..
cos i walk back today from mrt.
i kept listening to this 1000 miles
by vannessa carlton.
and i miss him so so much..
i just cant forget, cant let go..
im srys.. but i cant control.
hmm well enuff for update(:
tml cognitive hope i speak better(:
nites ppl
swt dreams..
take cares
updated:xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 4:21 AM

Monday, May 19, 2008

hihi
hmm lols i tot today culture UT
haha don have la lols..
hmm anw update on ytd first: 19.05.08
hmm went amk in the morning w my mum dad and bro..
LOLs hmm got quite a no of ppl ytd so was glad..
haha shall have more alrite!
GAMBAT'E
hmm anw went t the nxt door find jiejie cut hair..
LOLs just 修abit oni haha
hmm but we chat alot inside haha..
normal topic la..
lols and jiejie say wann introduce "can play fren"
to me haha.. LOLs siao la she..
hmm have funn.. and i dono whether wann pon lesson anot..?
haha checked. i cant haha
cos got UT tml.. lols haha
hmm nvm la my holidays are coming so haha can go out w her le..(:
hmm anw meet yh,lj,mh,mf,serena,yl,sz at bishan..
lols meet yh first and saw gene and ke.
LOLs gaoren still the same.. but gene changed alot..
haha more kawaii
hmm gaoren sweet lols haha..
anw reach there went t eat pizza hut..
goshh i just had my lunch arnd 1plus 2 and i eating again at 5pm..
goshh. hmm and of cos i gain weight la hell haha..
sad man.. haha..
hmm anw had funn shootin lj at pizza hut
rite? sz and serena..
haha LOLs and our CEO kept quiet haha..
cos yh too noisy and she;s collidating all then one shot go out haha..
LOLs but she dint.. i guess she was drunk by the end of the day haha..
and after tat we went t 711 haha..
bought smth lols(:
hmm and we went to lj hse downstairs and played w the playgrnd..
LOLs i wann play psp but they don allow..
*sad. haha
no la.. should have the time w them(:
hmm after tat cont w the nxt game lols..
playing true or dare..
haha i gave a flying kiss t lj..
haha goshh..
anw our game become *ahem topic..
haha and SZ says "IM INNOCENT"
haha im so happy(:
whee im the most innocent one can!!(:
hmm ohh yaya..
xin msg me.. so happy can(:
haha was concentratin on msgin her oni.. haha..
we meeting soon! im sure(:
and in e nite..
it was well(:
imh*
anw i was online in e nite and
GET t chat w lj pz and sr..
LOLs haha im so surprise when i ask sr can chat..
he actually say can.. goshh..
but hmm we dint really chat alot..
he's still cold lols..
hmm but hmm still happy(:
and also happy t chat w pz..
haha pz msg me!
and we shall go for dinner sometimes.!!
haha(:
*iLh

okays shall update on today : 20.05.08
hmm earli morning took bus met akmal haha
LOLs cool.
i tot we nth t say but haha there's quite alot..
now then i noe mrs rahmat teachin sec 1 this year haha a bit surprise.
she's too good t teach sec1 la
wasted lols haha
hmm then had funn chattin w akmal(:
and meet serena at the sch's busstop..
haha she's too good t wait for me(:
hmm walk t sch tog..
and it was super weird haha..
hmm serena takin O's this monday..
lets all wish her great luck aites(:
加油,加油!!
hmm.. now today maths..
computing.. ohh my im so sians de can haha..
haha my faci comp got prob yeah..
we wasting time lols.
hais hope today will be a fast one..
im so lookin forward t after sch..
can go hm and go cycle w my bro..
haha good workout lehh..
hmm hope we can go cycle or jogg everyday..
i will have someone acc and motivation haha..
yeah im so lookin forward t tat workout(:
hmm sians i feel like slpin sia..
my eyes kinda swollen..
its tiring okays haha..
LOLs nxt sat workin again..
its dennis and dickson function..
hope everythin goes well(:
just view my blog in e morning..
and guess wad..
xin and 010 tagg me..
goshh... so unexpected visitor!!
im so happy(:
haha LOLS. im elated(:
well lesson starting soon...
我对你不是一点。
我喜欢你不是一点。
我伤心不是一点。
我哭不是一点。
我想你不是一点。
别说什么都是一点。
因为加起来，就是很多点。
....
天意真的弄人。
你说的。
早认识我会和我在一起吗？
你也知道我可能会为你而哭。
为何还要说。
为何说了还要问。
一点是骗人的。
我该怎麽做？
我该怎么办？
心想着你但很想把你忘掉。
很想打给你但又不能打。
很像简讯你但又不能简讯你。
好烦。
我真是傻瓜！):
i regretted askin.
im so stupid.
goshh.. why i making myself so miserable.
why?
可是我真还以为你的答案会是‘不’。
我做了“不”的心理准备
但我错了。
现在的我，不该如何是好。
你，真的让我很头痛，也很心痛。
不要折磨我了好吗？
hais..
im so bored now..
just chattin w mh oni..
hmm maths today also dono nid t do wad sia..
scare man..
anw i noe i will get C again for today ba haha..
LOLs standard..
hmm sians tml got UT for culture..
im eating APPLE now..
haha dieting*
lols. hmm im bored..
worksheet not done.. and i cant play CS haha..
LOLs focus man!
haha no more CS lols..
anw gilbert got his hair brown alr..
instead of blonde.. haha not bad uhh..
hmm..class still the same..
crazy haha they just went t play prank arhh goshh.. haha
COOL anw.(:
well..im doin ppt now..
rozlyn doin i mean.. we discussing.
LOLs don really noe how t do la..
haha so used akmal ppt..
=P lols haha so bad sia..
hmm just now called jiejie..
told her abit on ytd..
she say today he also make funn of her..
ask her out for movie..
hmm he changin target?
he playing w me still?
hmm but sians arh today lesson. i don like!
and they playing CS alr..
but i don wann play arhh..
play like will play till sians de..
so hmm long time play once then will have e feel man. haax
okays im confused la..
im so weak in my own relations..
i don have e strength t have others,
hais..im a failure in tat sense..
well tats abt today ba(:
bye ppl take cares..
updated:xiangs

Labels: i cried.imu.maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 5:39 PM

Sunday, May 18, 2008

hihi
just had a great dinner w my family and went sunplaza after tat(:
hmm tml gg amk..
i just dono why
i suddenly felt so scare so sad..
tat i really wanna cry..
i dono why..
imh..
imh alot and alot..
but i don wann
i just forcing myself not to.!!!!
hais im confused.
tats all i noe..
maybe becos...
还没喜欢他的时候
就逼自己喜欢他。
然后，需要做选择时，我接受了他。
不知要还是不要跟他说。
说了又怎样？
没怎样。
想着他，又怎样？
他也不知道。
知道了又怎样？
没怎样。
傻瓜好烦哦！。
well tml maybe gg dinner w lj they all(:
hmm.. im super upset todae and i dono why..
hais wad shld i do?
who shld help me?
who shld save me out of this?
who?
tml,
shld i face?
tml,
wad shld i do?
tml,
wad will happen?
i just wanna say
我想他。很想，很想。
好想哭，好好的哭。
好想喊，大大声的喊。
好想抱，仅仅的拥抱。
救救我好吗？
恶人。
教我怎样放下你好吗？
。。
.
.
.

. .
. . . .
. . . .
. . .

. .
. .
...

cant let u noe anymore
cant chat
cant talk
cant msg
cant face
cant miss
who?
who?
can tell me
you love me too?

Labels: imu. maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 6:59 AM

Saturday, May 17, 2008

How well do you get along with others?
You truly believe in friendship. You get along well with others, and those who are around you are happy to be with you, too. You love to be surrounded by friends and you'll do anything you can to help them without expecting anything in return. When your friends are smiling, you're as happy as you can be.
What Type of Woman Does He Like?
He's the typical guy that you normally would see in today's society, nothing too spectacular. In fact, you really have to concentrate in picking him out among the crowd. He's also easy going, has a sophisticated taste. He isn't boring or anything like that. Just that he would tend to be a little humble, has his own independent views, but keeps it to himself. If the situation requires, he can step forward and really make an impression on others.The woman of his dream must not be the helpless lady type or too conservative, but must be a fighter with high perseverance. Women who are the fragile type or too ladylike are definitely not to his taste. She must be committed to overcome any obstacle in building up a family with him. Those from a rich family is definitely out. He prefers women whose fortune are self-made. This type of guy isn't selfish at all, but a real social contributor one can say. Don't worry, his requirements aren't really that high, you may pass the test you know.
What does being a friend really mean to you?
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

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no matter wad we become.. 11:43 PM

Okays finally let me introduce this burger monster to u!
She's PAMELA WEE YUN XUE(:

Taken at my grannie hse(:

Goshh so OBSEEN!! HAHA
They playing CS!!!=.=
with this positon..
gilbert stop it arhh!=P

haha this is in class.
see wad gilbert and fathil doin..
omG!! haha
see wads on the screen!(:

Haha a good photo tog at least(:

Goshh stop it haha=X

HEr kisses for u(:

SEE!(:

This is her "秘密武器"

haha this is in mrt heading back to yishun..

LOLs she's not kissing me..

but turning her head back..

she wher got so gd will kiss me haha=X

kiss my "sis" oni ma(:

HAHA lols. hmm tats all for the pictures..

hmm nv update on friday is it??

hmm shal update now..

friday went btp w mh sz serena and lj.

meet yh and mf for prata afterwards..

LOLs a cool thing happen on our way there..

me and serena compete t reach there first.

and we found us v stupid cos too earli reach and still have t wait 15mins for others t reach too!!

goshh.. so slow man..

anw let update on ytd. sat

haha went work w serena.

Hmm funn! and super slack can.

got beiyi, qianqian, qilin, shanning hp no..

COOL haha..

srys serena i working i seldom talk so will v sians and i noe..

hope u ok w tat job(:

anw in the bus ytd, had funn talking t qilin and shanning..

haha my great-grandfather (Qilin)

LOLs hmm and neglected serena and lj again!!

Goshh im so so srys.. just tat i seldom talk t them so talk alot ytd..

haax..

anw today dint go amk..

sad man..

hmm im so srys jiejie..say will go then nv go..

tml sure go!!!

srys!!!):

anw i dream of him again..

in my dream got 2 senarios.

one got him one don have him..

LOLs hmm first one is my mum and bro..

my bro cry and my mum beating him

LOLs serve him rite=P

haha LOLs so bad.

anw the second one is on him

got joanne lj mh shanning

so weird,, the ppl are not related..=.=

hmm we go pray maybe at bugis

and he and his fren were just in front of us..

and he kept looking back..

then i tell joanne then joanne shout..

then shanning dono say wad also.

then i was telling them nono!

i try t hide from him

haha if not will let him noe smth..

LOLs i dono la.

why am i dreaming of him so much!!!

hmm.. anw ytd at hotel.

serena told me smth and i also told her smth..

i usually do wedding functions

so when i still w him,

i would think of something fantasy

when i no more have him..

i will be sad.

v sad whenever i do wedding..

goshh..

luckily ytd was DD

but i still don like..

the ppl suc cAN..

lols.. but the foreigner v cute!

and the best thing is u noe wad!

he speaks alot of language!

* chinese , fluent-english, hokkien, teochew,jap,thai,malay

goshh,,

he so pro la..

im so amazed.!

and he's handsome also haha=X

haha LOLs siao okays la..

anw i wann go amk!!!

hais..

hmm..

dono la.

anw im so addicted to CS. and also a song.

1000miles by vanessa carlton haha..

LOLS rita's song but its super nice and super relate t me..

and sha gua.

hmm..

hais im so sad la whenever i listen t sha gua..

its too like my life alr..

hais.

sad case..

anw enuff of update le la..

off t play CS=X

haha okays bye(:

updAted:xiangs

Labels: imu. maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 8:39 PM

Thursday, May 15, 2008

おはようございます。

haha shall update on ytd. 15.05.08

hmm well out w lj. haha

met her for pizza...

hmm then went t timezone!

yeah..

play the catch sweet machine..

and we got 2 soft toys and 2 alien haha!!(:

hmm okays tats all for ytd.

lets update on today(: 16.05.08

hmm sians in the morning was earli..

HAHA lols earli in the morning play CS alr.

lols got time ma..

anw today sci..

goshh so hard la..

its on physics and chem..

LOLs wth i don even understand on heat capacity

and i did badly for the presentations.

hais. so srys man..

to my team

*Nadhirah

*Gilbert

*shikin

不是故意还你们的.

因为我自己真的不懂.

真不好意思.

hais i felt so bad la if i pull my team's grade down.

goshh hais..

sians i felt so nervous presenting..

cos this one i dono wad im presenting..

hais..

goshh..

hmm sians im so dead man..

hais enuff of the bad stuffs..

tonight meeting yh they all(:happy*

hope tonight will be funn(:

haax.

okays that all for today(:

*short and sweet(:

updated:xiangs

Labels: innocentfool.

no matter wad we become.. 6:02 PM

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

hihi
todae UT on maths..
LOLs hope its easy ba.
scare v difficult lehh.. hais..
enterprise teacher come alr..
So earli lols.. sians
hmm enterprise todae! JIAYOUs(:
haha today same group again
*rita
*gilbert
*datul
LOLs hope we make a great team again(:
Hope everything goes well today(:
anw meeting lj and maybe serena after school to pizza hut(:
yeah haha
lols tml meeting yh they all at btp also..
goshh im so looking forward and its coming!!!
HAHA.
lols tat stupid sis
anyhow de.
suddenly become so sacrastic can..
sad la.. wth..
haha LOLS anw..
when i going to class today,
i walk pass alot of 帅哥=PP
haha lols COOLs(:(:
hmm sians now discussing the problem statement..
but i no mood lehh
wann end sch fast haha then can go eat=XX
opps haha=p
but nvm shall endure.
must do a good job today lols.. haha
hmm last week got A for enterprise so happy(:
haha!!
hmm i wann slp alr..
lols hais..
nobody chat w me lols.sians nobody online also..
sians
sians.
sians..
haha lols.. PPL don be influence by me man..haha=XX
hmm anw this sat workin!
looking forward cos gg w serena.
haax but hope she gets well by then ar..
haha(:
ACCOUNT!
i know nth..goshh..
i don understand..
hmm now chattin w mus.. haha
COOL.
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=189629&action=Preview
PPL see this link..
this blogskin is nice(:
haha lols sians now nth t do alr.
hais nobody t chat also.
why am i so boring..
hais.. msg jiejie..wonder if she will reply anot.
haax. maybe she busy la hahax..
hmm i wanna eat baked rice now..
shall i skip sch!!!
HAHA crazy lols..
really an idiot
傻瓜
笨蛋
白痴
lols haha..sucks arhh
i hate being BORED..
hmm all doin ppt nobody playin CS
lols im hardworking..
i finished alr..
i finish even when second meeting ends..
but im dead.. cos i donno how t do the question 5..
accounts i dono cann!!
haax. sians don understand wad the teacher teaching also..
hmm now u noe who i miss?
wher i wish to go?
and wad i wanns to eat?
what im lacking?
who i miss.
*Lj
*serena
*mf
*yl
*sb
*bro
*YH
*mH
*P'
*BD
*YP
*sis
*5n3s
*Jess
*Eleanor
*JQ'
*JQ
*GJ
*SZ
*Ivan
*Mark
*Sr
*Spencer
*2006 batch
*E36K
*Family
*teachers
*amk
and alot more..
where i wish t go?
*Singapore river
*Esplanade
*Sentosa
*Changi
*East Coast
*Home
*Safra
*Playground
*Pasir ris
*Seletar (yishun)
*Sembawang park
*Fullerton
*Sheraton
*Countries
What i wannt to eat?
*Sakae sushi
*Seou gardenn
*Swensen
*Jack's place
*Mac
*Pepper lunch
*Foodcourt
*Genki
*Sakura
*Mos burger
*Pizzahut
*Fish and Co
What im lacking?
*Clothes
*Pants
*money
*Tips for sliming
*Brains.
*wallet
*Soft toys
*Crystal ball
*Sweet family
*sweet relationship
*ppl who love me
*ELMOS
*Place to play
*Place to eat
*Place to release stress
What i wann now!
*Sakae sushi
*Singapore river
*Crystal ball!
HAHA lols
im so crapp la
hmm my class they all cracking jokes..
LOLs dono wad but im not listening lols. earpiece on..
hmm sians i wann go hm now la..
no mood study alr..
LOLs slack too long alr..
and im so so so LOOKING forward t tml outing!!!
hais im sad la..
i wish tml was here faster..
but ends later..
hmm u noe wad i mean..
A SCRIBE:a writer or author, esp. a journalist.
thats wad im always am..
haha.. oni for today gilbert the scribe.. he also wann ma
so i take a break lols(:
anw scribe or blogging can help me practise my typing skills..
its fast la.. haha im amazed too(:
hmm im bored now superly bored..
hais.
why is my life so boring.. no excitement at all
ohh goshh im 18 for goddness sake..
and im not into any relationships or any exciting has happened in my life..
hais.. so sad.. so bored..
HAHA just play CS.
hmm FUNN!! haha(:
COOL yeah(:
(:(:(:
hmm yeah startin presentations liao!!
i so looking forward t ending sch!!!
hmm i finally ended my presentations.
still not too bad(:
good job team(:
hmm sians still got 15mins oni..
and not yet last team and 6p..
goshh.. i think i will be late.. hais sians.
nvm anw lj meeting serena first..
sians i come red..
goshh sians diao cann..
hais..
tml sure v hard t play de..
not funn alr..
nvm shall have funn!! don care(:(:(:(:
okays la.. enuff of update liao.. nth much t say.. hmm okays. byebye
anw my E36k class outin is on 2nd june!(:
okays bye ppl!
take cares(:
updated:xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 5:36 PM

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

no matter wad we become.. 12:44 AM

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

hihi
LOLs update on ytd: 13.5.08
ytd he msg me while im surfing net and chatting w lj
he: 最近好吗？
me:不是说很好，你呢？
then suddenly phone vibrate..
calling*
LOLS.. hmm shock arhh.
then went out listen phone..
he：为什么不好？
me：没为什么咯
hmm then he also ask me smth..
he：你妈妈懂吗？
me：懂什么？
he：我和你的事咯？
he：懂我有女朋友的事。
he：但不是玩弄你的感情。
me：懂啊一向来都懂。
me：根本就是嘛？(shoot him)
he：不是啦。不是这样。
pausssssee.........
keep having this pauses.. hais
changed*
then hmm other more qns..
but the thing i did most correct and im feel happy abt myself is that
i end the phone first..
in terms of saying okay la don say alr nxt time den chat..
LOLs yeah.. cos for so long i dint get t end the phone..always is he end de..
tis v power la.. the v first time..
im so happy..
LOLs.. hmm..
msg:
me:谢谢你打给我，晚安
he：傻瓜！晚安
hell call me shagua again..
goshh im so fed up w tat name arhh..
hais..
hmm shall update on todae : 14.5.08
hmm well todae culture and we are being flimed in our culture lesson
goshh.. haha.. crap arhh
so ps haha..
luckily its oni for our class..
haha..
let's get high man!!!
anw ltr lunch maybe gg eat w baide yiping and pam..
haha(:
but in the end meet pam oni
LOls baide nv come sch
yiping v busy w sci..
so sad..
cool(: first time everyone meet up t eat..
but oni don have yonglin oni..
hais. dono la
anw monday changing t pepperlunch?? or seoul garden in cw??
haha great pple?? is it alrite??
hmm hope everythin goes as plan...
hmm looking forward t every outing!!!
haha just chatting w sis..
lols he's so cute la.
crappy lols..
hmm anw happy(:
able t cont contact w them(:
hmm yeah!!!
finish my ppt..
LOLs hope our team would be one of the better ones..
hmm ffaci is mad at our class.
cos he say tat other classes uses the first break t start up w the presentations.
but our class even if we are being videoed we still play CS
and waste our time instead of doing the ppt..
LOLs sarks la..
our group do ppt alr lol..
so sad.. haha anyhow malign us
hmm nvm.. hope our presentations is good can alr(:
lols he's here alr..
hope everythin goes rite!(:
yeah presentation finish alr..
haha faci praise me!!!(:
haha yeah so happy(:
now the class planning chalet haha..(:
JIAYOUs!
GOOD LUCks.
GAMBAT'e!!!(:
*Nadhirah
*Priya
*Rita
haha LOLs COOL(: all girls group!!!
hmm we hardworking de lols..
is the teacher dono..=.=
well its okay hmm shall do well in presentation can alr(:
well ltr gg ah ma hse.. hmm
okays shall update more tml(:
will he call today?
should i pick up?
okay bye ppl
take cares(:
updated: xiangs

Labels: maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 5:35 PM

Monday, May 12, 2008

hihi
lols ytd forget t update on that i saw chen chen in sch..
hmm..
anw dint let him see me la..
don dare see him also..
but missed him haha
LOLs cos its been long since we met again..
anw. shall update on today(:
today sci UT.
kinda alrite but dono how will i score.
LOLs hope everythings fine..(:
anw todae's cognitive.
hmm read the worksheet alr..
kinda hard ehh..don really noe how t do lols..=.=
hais. anw todae shall be a short day aites..
im not in the mood t study..
goshh..
ytd nite,
i dream of smth..
我梦到他。

故事是这样的，

我在上班，等着serena来上班，

不知叫随叫他快到，

但后来，她来了后，整个场面就变了。

不在酒店，但在“那里”

听到他喊叫声，回头看，真是他。

还看到了大大声auntie，榴莲叔。

后来走开了，又见他跟来。

goshh...

奇怪的是，

一向来，做梦了就会直接醒来，

但这次很想不想醒来。

不知为何，就好好棋，为什么会梦到他？

为什么会不想醒来？

我不想再想那么多了啦。算了好吗？
well now discussion about mentally handicapp.
LOLs i have no encounter of this things..
haha LOLs vetri was so funny..
saying things he had encounter..
nadhirah also..lols haha
glen so funny la.. acting t hug nadhirah haha(:
class was funn(:
but today i don feel like talkin..
dono why..=.=
hais.
im hungry!!!):
yeah im eating now(:
haha LOLs just now played CS w the class again..
hmm they planning for chalet at aloha..
haha(: COOL
hope it doesnt clash w my own class gathering man,,=.=
hmm serena sick..
ohh poor girl..
anw gett well soon aites(:
take care and rest well(:
hmm now starting presentation alr(:
hmm hope this would be a good presentation ba. and a fast one hopefully haha=X
hmm im tired alr..
and hungry..
LOLs goshh im wann my chocolate i bought ytd.
LOLs dint bring it t sch..
hmm nvm shall enjoy it at hm=P
haha. anw friday meeting them for btp and ph..
goshh im really looking forward t everything la..
but..
期待是不好的。
因为期待的东西，最后会变成一场空。
im afraid la..
hais. anw jiejie msg me just now.
LOLs say she buys ytd so din reply me.. LOLs
i was afraid she got into some trouble.
but she's alrite and thats greaT(:
hmm ltr gg home need do chores lols.=.=
haha nvm la.
勤劳一点啦。
haha LOLs. will de(:
hmm presentation starting le.. shall end my updating(:
okays seeyou and update soon(:
take cares everyone
P.s: today's post was short..
updated:xiangs

Labels: maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 6:26 PM

Sunday, May 11, 2008

hihi
LOLS in the morning went blogg viewing..
just came t a blogspot.
and spotted this line..
quoted:
相信付出会有代价，代价只是一句傻瓜
yes i agree..
LOLs there's more but i think this is more meaningful..
goshh..
hais ytd nite was hard t pass..
im still very heartache..
LOLs.. in terms of the things tat had happen made me so sad..
well faci here.
hmm went t had lunch w p..
LOLs sis biased.
haha=X
no la..
hmm anw went back class
shikin and shahman playin CS alr..
LOLS tat was fast arhh
haha..!!!
LOLs..
hmm serena told me friday gg bottle tree and prata house..
yeah!
im so looking forward t meeting yh and the rest..!(:
lols srys i dint go for prata ytd nite..
but heard your had so much funn so great(:
haha..
hmm. anw well im having funn at sch also.
mainly becos of CS and yupps i think its becos of CS
haha.. LOLS.. hmm its lame but its funn(:
*bangs
hmm now presentation startin..
LOLs todae no ppt..
we played till 145 then end and we can finish our work on time.
so cool la.. haha!
LOLs.. anw i hope i make sense in my explanation though haha(:
*laptop lid down.(:
hmm finally,
did the program flow..
finally understood how t do..
lols haax.
now alr 410pm le..
not even 6p..
goshh..
lols serena went home le..
hais ltr gg hm alone liao lols.. sians.
haha.. hmm gg ah ma house ltr(:
lols.. tml science UT..
goshh so dead arhh..
haax.. hmm study ba(:
傻瓜
真是大傻瓜.
well gg off soon le ba.. i hope..
haha wann go ahma hse fast(:
hmm dono wad she cook todae hhaa=P
*blaes lols.
hmm sians still lessonin.. and they wasting time arhh
haha no la.. the faci wasted alot of time lols.
hais.. wish im back now.
LOLs. hmm im missin someone yet someone dint noe im missing..
lols. who?
haha myself(:
lols.crapp la..
ya lols im so crappy..
im bored now la
haha):
class was a laughter afterall with those jokers..
haha LOLS faci cant even stop laughing arhh
but this maths teacher more serious..
LOLs. sians.
finally now how t do le.. but just now dint noe.. so din do well
pulled my team down..
): im so srys!*
well at least im not the worst haha(:
alrite gg hm soon ba.. now startin 6p le..
alrite(: enuff of update le..
byebye
take cares(:
updated:xiangss$

no matter wad we become.. 5:54 PM

hihi
let me update on 10may08 first
hmm went out w pam and june..
LOLs went t cathay at dobby ghaut..
and then after reachin there, pam dint see any landyards she like so dint bought anythin..
june went to work and off we went..
hmm it was boring as 2 of us dint know wher else to go alr..
haha lols.
hmm went plaza singapura..
hmm swear tat was the first time i went there..
well it was quite nice there..
wann buy boxes can go there haax..
and amazed tat there was a jap provision shop..
goshh and the customers are really japanese..
SO COOL lols haha..
hmm anw went to buy some ice creams haha(=
rums and rasin..
was nice!
hmm then headed to yishun..
went jieleng house for majong session..
haha
with ying ying pam jieleng and me..
haax.. LOLs
funn(=
hmm.. after tat went for movie.
*made of honor
well the movie was quite nice,
but very fast..
i mean the story..
haax.. LOLs love story..
hmm..anw was funn tat day i suppose.
got some photos but very irritated..
i dint get t upload into my comp
maybe try tml in sch..
hopefully everything shall works.(:
anw shikin was telling me she and shahman goin sch tml..
earli haha to play CS
goshh haha.. COOL
lols hmm..
alrite shall update on today
110508
hmm in the morning as i overslept,
i dint go amk..
lols jiejie call me then haha=X
hmm then walk t sunplaza with daddy, sheng, han
haha ate kfc..
lols and we went t buy ingredients for 火锅 and also salads.(:
haha lols bought quite alot..yupps(:
hmm after tat come back..
and we did chores lols..
hmm after tat my mum came back and we start our 火锅
so nice..
haax..
希望那一刻不会消失
hais so much things has happen..
anw on my way back ytd..
i went t buy rose for my mum(:
ohh ya
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY
to all great mum in the world(=
hmm well..i just thinking whether am i goin t survive thr this?
hais.. i just thinking..
i really cant take it.. but i noe i have to..
why am i oni one handling so much stress.
im a kid alrite
im not a superwoman or smth
is these situations made for me?
and why do u think im able t handle or accept it..
i cant..
i really cant
i tot one sad case is over
now i guess there's more coming up..
how should i react
how do u think i should react?
when can i say
i love my life.
when can i say
im having a good time.
i dono
i really dono when..

chat w bro just now..
lols hmm srys if im being too direct but
i noe i cant judge or comment on ur fren
but seriously, i don like.
i really don like and there's nth t hide.
if u wanna be w her, by all means.
i wont say u cant.
cos who u like is ur prob not mine.
i don have the mind t think and bother abt ur stuffs.
but i think if u really get w her..
i think things are gonna be tough between u and me..
well i just wish u all the best(:
hmm.. im frustrated..
im stressed.
i dono wad should i do..
im really lost.
well another day pass again..
this week kinda pass very fast..
hmm june holiday coming..
im super looking forward t it..
cos alot of gatherings!!(:
goshh i just cant wait man..
hmm alrite shall try updating the pictures tml!(:

忘了你，是没可能

虽然决定不要简讯你，我还是很想简讯你。

知道不可以，就凭想象咯。

好想问你，

：过得好吗？

：虽然知道，

也知道要问的不只是这个，

也好想问，你有想我吗？

没办法问，想好辛苦。

真的。

不只他这种人会改变吗？

改变了又怎样？

你们又看“放羊的星星吗？”

头头开始时，夏之星的男友就是有令个女人

还怀孕了。但有一次，因为以外，那个女的流了很多血，

需要B型血，才能够就救她。

夏之星虽然很心痛，很恨她的前男友，但还是帮了那个女的。

如果是你，你会那么好吗？

那么宽容？

其实，我觉得我会。

但会很伤心，很伤心。

会想天底下，怎么会有这种男人。

自己遇到了才领会到真的有。

现在的我，能算是放下了。

但还是好想念，好想念着他。

好害怕望后的日子。

真希望找点让我找到，真正属于我的。

会的。相信每个人也会早日找到真正属于她们的。

王子。
alrite i think tats alot..
well shall update tml w the pictures(:
加油
JIAYOUs
Gambat'e!
haha another new day(:
okays nites pple.(:
take cares
updated:xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 5:13 AM

Friday, May 9, 2008

hihi

Shahman(:

haha he like to shit around =X

HAHA! lols no la he's very nice! COOL

he like to squat and camp in CS lols.. haha shitting in wad we called.

haha(:

Shikin..(:

my usual teammate(:

haha she's kinda pro lols..

haha see her innocent de, she's good in CS lols haha=X

Ba-ak sehh(:

Johairi!

lols hmm he so funny la.

and he acts like a professor lols=X hmm..

rumours ehh..(:

haha rayyan behind making effects(:

Datul..(:

Gangster haha no la Good Boy.

LOLs he very COOL de lols.

haha silence kill lols.. haha

Funn(:

Fathil! haha

such an ass, =P always kills me in CS lols..

haha=X..

COOL ehh!(:

Yeah this is Rayyan..

haha from E36K my class..

LOLs we just finish playing CS and heading t CW..

he's an IT expert!!(:

LOLs hmm join my class in CS le..
HaHa now consist of Rayyan, Vetri, Gilbert, Shikin, Rita, Rozlynn, Shahman, Joe, Datul, Fathil and me..

hmm i think i forget still got who alr..

but surely somemore coming up to join haha!

very COOL man..

i like this game..(:

lols.. we were like discussing on where to go for our class outing..

LOLs.

me: ehh guys, we go sentosa arhh.. shikin suggested it..

rayyan: okays.

Datul: why not we bring tent and camp outside the sch..

me,shikin,shahman: LOLs wth.

Rayyan: haha CS hardcore..

LOLS haha they really addicted to this CS game la..

gosh..

haha dint get t take pic w rita and aini who was there also at the canteen..

haha rita super cute la..

was shouting throut the whole entire game..

LOLS haha..

she really improving alot lols..

im still a noob arhh(:

haha LOLs..

hmm anw really funn playing w them(:

well tml gg out w pam and june t the cathay..

pam say buying some landyard for her and yl..

LOLS i also dono wad lai de..

well hmm meeting at 3pm tml! lols..

hmm.. well im looking forward...

hmm.. june holidays arriving.

i cant wait sia!

esp on the sushi outing! LOLS wth(:

*drooling

haha lols..

and also 5N3 and E36K class outing arhh

i wann go sentosa suntan also..

hope we can go sentosa for suntan sessions(:

well guys!

im looking forward to everything arhh!

and also mondays CS session!!!(:

haha COOL aites(:
well now alr 1102..

hmm just now msg ally tellin her i wont be gg amk tml..

LOLS wont be meeting her alr..

hmm.. well sunday still can see de(:

anw i also ask abt him arhh..

if his face okays alr..

she say: 跟我说没来是骗人的，问他的脸好了没才是真的。

i replied no la.. LOLs really cant meet u tml cos i really gg out tml ma lols

haha anw i also wont be msging him so the oni way t find out is her lols

hmm IM not USING her la.

ohh gosh lols..

hais..wadever la..

LOLs hmm..srys..but really 担心..

but hais..

okays lets not talk abt this alr..

well hmm tml will go by very fast just like any other day..

seriously when serena was telling me on thurs tat tml is friday..

i was like SUPER shock la..

cos i tot its was like oni wed or so..

and so fast weekend alr..

LOLs haiyo..

time really passes so fast..

hmm anw

jus hope today faci wont give us a C la..

a B will be good for todae..

LOLs in the morning he was pissed la..by my team and oni my team'
LOLs cos he tot gilbert got time play CS no time do worksheet..

LOLs and shikin and dhirah came up late and dint do worksheet.

so he was like super pissed w our grp..

then presentation

after team 2 (rayyan's group)

faci: well, your group presentation not bad.. well not consider very good but not consider very bad also so well done(: maybe there's still better or worst presentations than your de.,

me to gilbert: well faci like veri 期待 tat our team is the team w the worst presentation arhh

gibert: ya lols quite true ehh

then after our presentation

faci: Not bad, no qns, although most of the things is thr vurberly but still i dint find any mistakes so i guess is quite good..

me to gilbert: haha faci like abit surprise we did well for our presentations

gilbert: haha ya LOLs. surprised*

HAHA lols

well we dint disappoint the faci..

haha.. LOLs and hopefully NO Cs for us!(:

yupps(:

haha just now chat w yh and mh and lj..

LOLs hmm..

now boring arhh..

wanna slp..

haha LOLs.

i tot i now getting fatter le..

so scare la..

but heng sia* haha

i dint@@

in fact i remain in the very good weight haha!(:

im so happy arhh

but still nid to be slimer man!!!(:

will work hard de! JIAYOUs

JIAYOUS

GAMBAT'E

加油!

hmm booring arhh..

hmm slpin soon ba

also nth much to do

hope tonight i wont dream of being kill in CS haha!(:

LOLS. wth.. haha

okays end blogging for todae(:

NiGHTS pple!(:

take cares..*

updated:xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 7:43 AM

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

hihi
LOLs todae come out tat time. my mum told me a JOKE.
haha LOLs super funny..
she say my bro woke up at 3am to change clothes for school..
HAHA. LOLs super funny la.
hmm he wanns to follow my father car to school.
then scare my mum dint wake him up..
LOls haha super funny can..
haax.. LOLs.
hmm now having break again..
LOLs todae UT test kinda hard lols.
die..
haax anw hmm ltr gg hm le.
LOLs go jog?
must!
haha i everytime say nia..
LOLs
hais must jiayou arhh xianghui..
lols..
hmm ytd chat w my bro till 11pm then i slp..
LOLs. not bro as in yl..
LOLs haha real one..
hmm funn
then msg jiejie..
haha=X
lols hmm
but after the second msg i slept so i dint reply her msg.=P
haha anw.
hmm now gg presentation le.
haha LOLs..
hmm.. sians lols..
but this week got 3 days same teammates lols.
gosh.. haha
LOLs hmm..
todae 's teammates:
*Rita
*Datul
*Gilbert
hmm yeah finally ppt ended haha.
and its a nice one! yeah
good job team!!(:
gambat'e!(:
well kinda happy haha..
for the first time im so relax and the results is good..
yeah(:
hmm.. ltr buying food hm?
lols im so greedy la..
keep eat and eat..
lols gosh i haven 消化 can..
damn.. haha LOLs..
消化不良 lols.
hmm..
wonder he okay alr anot?
well..
wont be msging him alr.
ytd was the last one.
last one.
cos 他帮我整理掉我对他的感情...
well..hmm wish tat he can see wad i had been feeling..
可能他会跟加珍惜现在有的一切，
会改变他自己是最好的。
hope something like tat will happen(:
take cares and get well soon(:
after viewing something, im just angry la
angry for wadever it has displayed.
im angry.
why cant thing be the same.
im just thinking its being biased.
maybe not biased but somehow im forgotten.
haha chat w sis before i offline. yeeps(:
haha happy(:
CLASS OUTING everyone!(:
hmm
*E36k
*5N3!!
reply me asap.
tell me when ur are free to have class outing!!!
ASAP(:
well nth much to update le..
ohh ya..
LIJUAN, SERENA, MEIFANG, YH,MH,YL
im hungry..
i wann eat sakae sushi lunch!!!
ohh gosh..
find sometime and we go eat okays?
promise?..
okay bye ppl
take cares(:
updated: xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 5:49 PM

Selina and nadhirah(:

Me and selina.(:
Nice teammate. haha
power. always confusing herself(:

Nadhirah(:
haha having this posing shock.=X

Nadhirah(:

Nadhirah.

haha lighting wasnt tat good. so it wasnt clear..

but nice(:

Nadhirah and me. haha

in cognitive again..(:

hmm its 10.00pm now

i called him after sch

他牙齿痛，

所以没什么说话就挂了。

活来在等车时，我简讯他。

：那你好好照顾自己吧。

有点惊讶的是，他回答了。

：谢谢！你也是要好好照顾自己。

看完简讯后，有点后悔简讯他。

因为看完后，我心情好糟。

好想哭。

但没有。

我告诉自己，算了吧？

应该谢谢他。

让我在最后能够整理掉这段讨厌的感情。

而在开始新的生活。

对吧？

有点难，但我真许要的是时间。

好了，不聊了。

明天还有考试，祝我好运吧！

晚安咯。

保重(:

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no matter wad we become.. 6:43 AM

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

hihi
LOLs now bloggin in culture lesson..
hmm sians. change grp alr.
but still alrite la haha(:
anw just now went lvl 3 canteen.
saw bro there..
LOLs show me middle finger.
so ass arhh.
LOLs i noe play play also..
hmm then wanna pass him the soccer magnet
but he don wann take ar..
LOLs. hmm..
always w his frens oni
okays arh
im jealous can.
LOLs why? cannot arh.
lols. say ask him go lunch sometimes.
but how? he eeverytime so 幸福 w so bigg grp of frens
lols.
nah nvm its okays.
he happy can alr lols(:
hais.
sians now v boring lehh
hmm..
anw serena not here today..
LOLS she lazy lols haha=XX
haha..
hmm todae is a bad day..
it started raining in the morning..
还有雷耶.
gosh..so scary..
im afraid.
lols. hais
same,
ytd nite i cant slp..
and everynite i will do the same thing.
我很傻，真的很傻。
我好笨，真的好笨。
傻瓜。
hmm..
ltr gg back straight hope no more raining leh..
hais i wann go joggin la
got feel then cannot
no feel then can
wth..
不能吃肉！要减肥(:
haha=P
will make it de ehh..
hmm..
sians arhh..=P
well 有点想念
想念是不好的。
想念是害人的。
想念是没必要的。
傻瓜才会笨笨想念。
ytd b4 i slp..
i was thinking..
there are more and more things or others i have lost.
im really going headache. heartache.
i've lost maybe more than what i tot i have..
i missed more than what i've been missing..'
friendship..
is the ship sinking?
relationship..
is the ship sunk?
familyship..
is the ship going?
everythin is a headache.
everythin is a heartache.
ima.
all.
all.
a thing i treasure.
a thing i cherish.
a thing i think ive lost.
a thing which is hard t get back.
well shall not say much abt that..
hmm now having the long break.
LOLs tot abt times when i always had my 2 hrs break..
called him though..
but now its different.
hais..
hmm well kept playing viwawa to keep my mind off..
LOLs.
hmm won alot of time also haha=)
anw im still unable.
unable t put down
unable to forget
unable to stop.
maybe i needed more time than i tot i need.
单恋，
我每次都是这样。
单恋，
是好痛苦的。
well i guess todae i blog alot le.. haha so..
CIAOs.(:
hmm take cares people(=
我几时才可以放下？
几时才可以有足水面？
几时才可以接受事实。
几时才有人来代替？几时才能整理掉这段感情？
updated:xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 8:14 PM

Hihi
LOLs. hmm todae UT test abit sux lols
hmm..
dint get t finish my last qns.
and time up!):]
hmm anw hope i dint do too badly..
hmm after tat went amk..
LOLs..
was listening t mp3.
so dint say hi to anyone.
LOLs..
hmm dint notice smth then..
hais.
i was sitting outside.
then he walk past..
went t cut hair.
he whistle and ask if i had my lunch alr..
i replied and after tat he went in t cut hair.
LOLs..
hmm after tat i was waiting t see him outside.
alot of thoughts went thr my mind.
thinking if i really hated him..
thinking if i let him go
thinking if i still * him.
well, i was also wondering why he so slow.
haax maybe he was flirtin w the salon girls lols?
who noes.
hmm after tat i was so impatient.
started t count and have the thought tat
if he nv come out by 10s i really will hate him..
i started 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,...
it was normal speed i can swear.
LOLs. and he really appear in front of me when it come t 9.
LOLs.hmm im confused.
第一次觉得好灵哦。
我不会认为什么。
因为知道还是不可能的。
really..
however, i saw smth else.
he walk past me, still asking whether i ate my lunch alr.
then i notice his cheeks.
they were swollen..
i immedately tot he must have gotten into fights.
LOLs a sudden worry...=.=
有点心疼。
hmm however no la.
LOLs he just got a toothache i guess?
haax he's chubby for todae lols=X
hmm after tat durian uncle called me ther.
LOLs i donwann then he say got smth tell me.
d.uncle: ehh come ehh
me: don wan, u come arhh
d.uncle: got smth tell la come lehh
me: walking* wad?
d.uncle: ur ah ma nv come arhh
me: dots. lols no la. u got see her here mehh=.=
d.uncle: haha lols. ehh he give u this (黑羅米soup)
me: don wan i don wan
d.uncle: nice lehh, u donwan i eat arhh
me:anything lols. walk away*
hais..
wad for??
我不想你请，不想你用钱，认为钱是万能的。
不是！
lols. haha after tat he really enjoyed eatin tat lols=X
haax. funny..
hmm todae had funn chattin w ally lols. haha
anw after tat called serena first cos wanna see if she end sch alr..
LOLs. hmm
after tat called the attention seeker*
haha LOLs she wann be called in this way XP
haha
LOLs. anw srys disturb ure arhh..(=
alrite la..

hmm saw baide and gf on the way back..

hmm sweet sehh..(:
now nth much t do..
just wanna update a bit haha(=
alrite then(:
OYASUMINASAI(:
take cares

我每天晚上都失眠，

我好辛苦哦。

心情一时好一时坏。

好想哭。好难过。

好无聊。好空虚。

我好累，好累。
给我时间，整理掉这段可恨的感情。
updated:xiangs

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no matter wad we become.. 5:03 AM

Monday, May 5, 2008

OHAIYO!
hihi everyone.
another morning again(:
hmm ytd was quite funn w mf lj and s
LOLs. hmm srys i dint noe pasta mania standard drop so low
hmm srys wasting ur de money t eat this crap..
nxt time go pizza hut instead..
hmm im guilty la..
hmm anw ytd went hm,
chat w yl cs and s
LOLs haha..
hmm did my rj and evaluation.
however was disconnected, so quiz wasnt able t do..
damn lols..
sent email to faci alr..
hais sians.
am i gonna get a C??
god no way..=.=
hais. today gg amk le.
so now gg t have UT test le..
scare i cant do..
then im the oni one doing on paper lols.
sians.
hmm hopefully not arhh(:
anw ytd nite was unable t slp la..
maybe not oni ytd nite.
for all nite i guess..
hard t get t slp..
hais..
maybe i noe why?
maybe i don?
hmm guess i wont be gg further depth t understand why ba.
anw hope UT test wont be a tough one(:
JIAYOUs(:
Gambat'e E36K and others who doin UT also(:
okays faci here!
Sayonara(=
Take cares(:
-flu bring t cough and fever =.=
updated:xangs

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no matter wad we become.. 5:36 PM

OHH damn this is ugly..=.=
haha i mean ME.

me and serena GOH.
LOLs haha went bishan.(:

This at newton.
Just went sheraton lols haha(:
LOLs i look fat.
hmm nah im fat=P

Me
at amk..
haha everyday got new hairstyle.
COOL rite!(:
i like this(=

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no matter wad we become.. 6:16 AM

Sunday, May 4, 2008

aini me and haida.
haha forget t post it. just got it from aini.
hey U are in one of my blogg post!(:

hihi
hmm feelin weird todae.
my eyes really sucks todae.
my face too i guess haha
ytd was watching 恋人 lols tat show super nice!
i wish i had 黑帮老大as bf also haha=X
lols. hmm
met akamal and june in the bus todae
lols chat abit w june.
haha..
hmm.. boring now la.
stilll having this damn flu lols.
hmm class haven start yet..
don wan it t start also
todae is computing ehh..
if cognitive would be better lols.
i don like this lesson la.
hais..
爱一个人是傻的吧？
很多人都说，应该找一个爱你的人，而不是你爱的人。
因为这样，你才不会受到伤害，
不会因为失去，感到万分伤心。
你觉得呢？
hais.
its hard t let go and i noe i have to
maybe wad i nid is a brainwash
yupps i nid..
hais...
sometimes things are unpredictable
yeah. unpredictable.
LOLs. hais i hate this kind of unwanted life.
也许你不会懂，从你说爱我以后，
我已经把半颗心交给了你。
我真的信任你，不想再犹豫。
好舍不得放弃你的我，
好想知道怎样把你忘了，好想当作什么事都没发生过。
虽然希望我的恋爱就像在童话里，
希望当幸福的公主*
但子只要你，我也觉得满足。
珍惜
守护
谁来保护我？
好想知道，在接下来的这段日子，
谁来陪我？
谁来帮我？
谁来爱我？
当雷公响时，谁来抱我？
我不想再受到伤害，不想再流泪。
我不想在胡思乱想，不想再伤心。
为什么，
你要骗？
说了又不算话。
花心，懦弱，没用
知道我有多讨厌你吗？
好期待的事，好信任的事，对你有好影像的事，
你要这样把它破坏吗？
是什么原因，你能狠心丢下我一人？
辛苦，这段时间好辛苦。
不想是骗人的。
不哭是骗人的。
不伤心是骗人的。
不生气是骗人的。
生病了，有人会关心吗？
伤心了，有人会理吗？
开心了，有人一起陪吗？
生气了，有人会帮你消气吗？
好无聊吧？
每次听我说这些话，好不新鲜哦。
我会没事的。给我时间吧？
傻瓜
我，
没得期待什么。
反正我每次期待的东西都会变成一场空吧？
伤心吗？
好。
干嘛。
我不是自己吧？
哈，太可笑了，
时间
时间能改变一切。
时间会帮我的。
放心吧？
好啦，我不啰说了。
开心一点吧。
笑一笑什么事情都过得去的！(:
yeah. i can.
and i noe.
well just had mac w class.
LOLs. but smth wrong.
the mac typo error?
hmm.. relax ba..
they keep play CS
lols haha.. then so noisy..
haha..
suddenly todae fathil group so hardworkin lols.
haha cannot imagine.=P
hmm now so bored.
alone lehh..
nobody acc me..
and im still having this flu..
more worst i think?
thinking of sliming down i still ate meat just now!
hell la.. omg..
haax.. nvm shall go for running!(:
hope everyday weather will be fine for me t go and have joggs.
anw tml gg AMK.
hmm abit scare.
but 2 days past.
however, i still cant face him.
i cant and i noe.
he said hi last sunday, but i just smiled.
i even msg him ytd nite.
要好好珍惜自己的现在？晚安咯朋友(:
of cos he replied. nites too!
Hmm then after tat i sms ally.LOLs.
haax talk t her for a while oni..
hmm don wann bother her
somemore i watchin 恋人 haha=p
hmm ..
ltr gg sheraton w serena haha
LOLs. cool.
she will be workin w me.
yeah finally i go work not alone.
hmm..
gg work this week?
maybe?
shall see la.
farid la. go quit alr.
hais then i sians alr lols.
nvm findin other work soon!(:
alrite la..nth much t blog alr.(:
ciaos...
updated:xiangs

Labels: maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 5:31 PM

Friday, May 2, 2008

hihi
just wanna update todae lols..
will be celebrating my grannie bday today(:
hmm ytd nite chat w sis and bro.
LOLs
yeah im happy alrite(:
haha.. will be organising class gathering sometime de.
So ppl look forward aites(:
hmm..
this morning chat w lj serena and yh.
haha.lols.
now abit bored.
and start to think about things alr.
hais
i was thinking
i feeling v 空
suddenly wad i had been doing,
has suddenly faded or lost
im lost in that sense.
every morning i will v want to msg him tat i reach sch
every break i would wann to call him t chat
every nite will v qi dai for his call at the same time
its been the usual routine for 3-4 mnths le..
hais
好舍不得but its over
everything is
as much as i wanted everything back
i noe its stupid.
he's a bastard.
he's a flirt.
and i noe im just stupid enuff to believe his every word.
my heart cant take it anymore.
when will i find my mr right
when will someone cherish me.
when will someone love me more than i do
when will someone treat me better than i treat him.
when?
yupps of cos everyone wish for all this.
so tat includes me of cos..
who doesn..
who don wann find someone who love her,
yupps.
i wann..
like i once told ally, who doesn give whole hearted in a relation..
so i think tats why its so diff t let go.
yeah?
hmm..
damn im down on flu...
must be my class those peeps give it t me..
LOLs haha..
(:
seriously,
im happy.
cos i talk t sis and bro when we dint for such a long time.
and i get t contact lj mf yt yl mf sb mh yh also.
and now i chatting w yh for so long..
LOLs so long nv chat w them le..
indeed im happy.
but like ytd i told bro,]
im sad.
cos i feel v lonely when im in sch..
nah its not tat i don have frens,
its just becos of tat something lacking.
i wann to 弥补 but u don give me tat chance t do tat.
i dono how am i gg to 拉近 this distance
i noe we gg further.
i wish i can do smth.
but even if i tried.
there will still be more happenings to come.
so i think wads the point of doing tat.
its like last time,
agreed on one. but still
the mistakes are being repeated over and over again.
so i think there's really no point doing tat.
hais anyway if things are really over
i think i would be most hurt.
hmm.. im the one trying.
maybe wad i said maybe selfish
but when did i not tried.
so..
hmm lets nature take it course.
alrite shall blog more tml i guess.(:
smile ppl!
no EMOs.
but ELMOS!
SMILES!(:'
updated:xiangs

Labels: goodbye.

no matter wad we become.. 10:40 PM

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Selina.
SEL.
haha she's one of my usual groupmates.
She's nice(=

Vetri..(:
always lookin blur=P

Shikin(:

NADHIRAH my usual group mate.

haha she's so cute haha.

Hmm high expectations too ohh..(:

Lastly, my beloved 姐姐
her name ALLY
haha she great!(:

Me and LiJuan(:

Me and 董事长(:

Waiting for lj and joanne to bugis(:

My BAOBEII
she great tat day!(:

My GF!
she wore nice tat day(:

This was on the 1st may.

went t clarke quay with these peeps.
DongJie, YiLing, MeiFang, Serena and LiJuan
had lots of FUNNS!(:

This is during the EARTH DAY! haha

we all planned to wear the same.

impressive uhh..(:

Okays this was after sch when some of us stayed back haha.
actually got other pics but arent able t show lols.

they are funny too..

anw this is my class..! COOL aites!(:

but i still miss my 5n3

cos they are the best!(:

This my class

E36K!(:
tat day was cognitive! and this day is called
E36k Black parade!(:

my FAVOURITE.

cos cinderella is the main character!

lols but know how much it cost!

$249.90..

ppl buy for me!!!(:

Labels: finally, thanks everyone for being there for me(:

no matter wad we become.. 9:55 PM