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Saturday, February 28, 2009

[28.2.09]
went amk in the morning
had a tiring morning -.-
anw i really tot abt it.
chatted w ser in the afternoon
and ya, i finally think i should let go,
maybe i really don love him,
its a habit to have him.
习惯.
and 习惯是能改的.
i believe and i hope it will..
i dono, im v confused.
maybe i shouldnt be hoping for things aimlessly in my life,
esp when it comes to relationship.
单恋. 自作多情.
well i should stop all this.
and hopefully i will.
我会把习惯慢慢改了。
well then in the late afternoon really damn sians sia.
suddenly phone rang!
whoohoo! its XJL :D
lalalas! yeah first time on the phone(:
but yeah have a nice 45mins chat w :D
and yupps wasnt tat bored la,
well make me think that actually why do i always make myself so low?
i have friends whom i can chat w.
i do not have t force myself to tok t him.
till 5th of march, we shall see ba.
maybe im able to do it.
hopefully.
只希望回忆不要染下污点
会把你深深的埋在心里
well, tats quite all for today,
nowadays damn tired lols -.-
cant open my full eyes ):
but then well i can help de i will help
hope my famiy problems get better :D
i love them (:
maybe this is call love.
had a good chat w dad..(:

ppl! pls anyone tell me wads the meaning of 爱?
i want to know. anyone!!(:

yeaps xiaojinling get well soon!:D

渐渐把你忘了，
可能你我都会好过一些.

mood: yippe(:
updated:xiangs

no matter wad we become.. 3:13 AM

Friday, February 27, 2009

[27.2.09]
no pics for this post. dint took any these fews days
cos always at amk -.-
busying nowadays.
stress of shop in cp and amk -.-
nvm, got up in the morning to mum shop.
msg him in the morning
then called back.
till now, no news. maybe today is friday?
anw abit stress out laa hais.
but still kinda happy today!
xiaojinling msg-ded me:D
lalalas he's back and pls la don call me boss -.-
lol! so ass hahah! get well soon aites :D
shall contact soon.
hmm abit sians there today,
check in and check out of the stocks
then chatted w jiejie abit.
she will be busy everytime i go there -.-
then nth much alr,
uncle say he wan come next week to find me
ya rite. as if la. lol
but i noe la, his pay day ma,
tats why he will come
not find me of cos, find them D:
went cp in the nite.
then ya, so on so fore
well, get off from some stress alr.
cos i finally understood.
yeaps (: but hope my dad does too :/
anw am v full now.
so ya gg off for walks (: bb

喜欢不是爱.
那我又爱过他吗？
我好像想放弃。可能快了。

54088! little genie(:

i wish i can get away from everything!
i wish there was always an alternative D:

mood: afraid. :/
updated:xiangs

no matter wad we become.. 5:26 AM

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

yeaps my curly hair.

[25.2.09]
well went amk earli in the morning
was so happpy to recieve his msg
but well the day wasnt so well..
im really confused.
i think i really stupid,
nobody is like as stupid as i am la.
hais, i dono wad im doing
maybe like wad ally said,
using this to exchange his real self.
hopefully, he's good. :/
he's really more in depth than i tot.
i don understand him D':
then chatted w ally all the way
cos today she alone
so ya.. hahah saw the photos.
not i zi lian hor.. its tat i play w the rolling one
hahah!make my hair lols.
i think abit straight and curl is nice.
too curl make me look like AUNTIE! omg hahah
and hor, the hair itch me -.-
hahah! so uncomfortable, cos hair too short lol.
anw i really need a job soon.
i wish i can help my family and him as much as possible ):
i really hope.
liu lian uncle gave us a small durian today
lol! hahah but nice sia, but the meat v thick lor'
eat abit -.- but nice anw(:
dono why but, they are all a group de.
somehow, i dono should i trust him?
i really dono..
now blogging and hearing my parents arguing.
i wish he was here if not a phone call would be nice

你知道为什么我每次在闷的时候打给你吗？
因为我要你跟我一样在有空时，想起我。
因为我知道，你不会.

i just wish this conflict of my family gone
GONE. D':
im v cold, lack of warmth.
nobody.
im alone.

谁会来帮我？
听我诉苦。
陪着我？
xiaojinling, maybe this is the time u should be here.

mood: im crying from the bottom of my heart, yet nobody noes. maybe?
a laughter w no smile.
a smile yet w tears.
updated:xiangs

no matter wad we become.. 3:10 AM

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

my mood, my expression,my emotions.

[24.2.09]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIIANXIIN
wish u all the best!
and xing fu always :D
lovees<3
today morning woke up done fridge cleaning
and also mop + sweep -.-
well nvm. then use comp was really BORED u noe D:
msg + call.. D:
dono why i just dono why -.-
hais still worrying for xiaojinling dono how alr ):
and also he told me,
he working from 11 -2am everyday D:
lack of sleep poor him D':
i dono wad else can i do hais -.-
family -.-
relations-.-
friends =.=
anw i got HUANG ZONG ZE poster! lovees:D
my mum got it from the specs shop!
they say come alr, so they leave one for me(:
so good rite:D thanks!! :D
lalalas had lunch w uncle, grannie and my fav nephew(:
lovees. he's too cute :D

see he's having fun waiting for his waffle.
went gelaire for half priced waffle
hahah! shared ice lemon tea w him too (:
went t my uncle hse, my nephew ask me wanna stay anot.
awww.. so sweet aint it..
lovees(:
wow so heart warming, just smth i need now..
i dono why, this few days been terrible for me.
im job-less, bored-ded and problems):
v lethargic. superly.
im worried, im sad, im angry, im hopeless..
many things, i dono why i even bother to care abt other things
but ya, they are friends.
well just wish xiaojinling recover and him having good health
im glad if ppl arnd me, able to be doing fine w their life
and not making me worry
and to tiianxiin- i wanna see u smile always :D
u will always be v xing fu de aites(:
but although im not doing well,
i don mind burdens, im still willing to hear ppl probs
so don hesitate to find me
im always a good listener(:
maybe i oni noe how t say,
but i never apply it in my life.
maybe i should try to...
maybe listening and helping ppl w their probs
keeps me gg in life.
well well, it seems to be a long post. so ya shall end here

吃饱，睡饱
多多照顾自己.
很想念你

i just wish there was a big turning point for my family.
maybe a small one at least,
a good one would be nice.

mood: lethargic. maybe?
updated:xiangs

no matter wad we become.. 4:41 AM

Monday, February 23, 2009

isnt life like a story book?
full of excitement, anger and sadness?
things are unpredictable.
but could be handle by its writer.
# u will be the one writing your story. #

ya and dono which idiot go and bang my uncle's car.
damn him man -.- don let me noe who.i sue him sia ass!
hahah and eeyore was taken earli morning..
my poor blue ranger. earli morning being tortured by me :P

[23.2.09]
today woke up earli in the morning.
cos mum called to ask me go her shop,
cos my relative got into hosp, so went t see.
then went amk lol.
had my "breakfast" there.
then whole remaining hours tok t jiejie
then took bus back.
called him, chat a little.
did letter writing notes for my bro.
then now slacking lor. nth much to do.
thanks ser for the notes and teaching.
wonder xiaojinling today how alr.
v worried >.<
but hope xiaojinling recover soon!
must be v soon D:

chatted w jose-hua for a moment.
hahah he v good lor. despite his sacarstic tones in sch.

Jose-hua :] said:
Study harder okay??
Jose-hua :] said:
Studies more important than anything

hahah lol good rite. quan wo leh lol.
but yeaps thanks alot too (:
lalalas ytd had toks w smelly, ser,tiianxiin,jiaqi and yang
lol hais i really dono. now im just too tired to think of anythin.
im dead beat. im feeling v tired of my thoughts.
every minute, i dono wad can i do D:
but still thanks for listening guys.

time really does flies.
all the things, all the happenings
wonder when will they come to us again..
its fate that we meet,
its regretful that we separate..
i miss the every moment of the past.

JOBS JOBS JOBS D:
my head is exploding -.-

一点点，能算吗？
但我对你是多少？

xiaojinling pls be back soon D:
IMISSU!

mood: lethargic *superly DD':
updated:xiangs

Labels: lethargic(inboldform).maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 12:46 AM

Saturday, February 21, 2009

[22.2.09]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GOH JIN QIANG :D

lol so good born on this beautiful date(:

anw wish all ur dreams come true

and all the best :D

went t mum shop today,

chatted w gj for like half the remaining hours,

then shop closing tat time,

he called -.-

then my mum keep asking me who called.

worse.-.-

then i couldnt say anythin, so bluffed her

ohh some one *( from facebook) but then i dono who la.

(very sorry to that person)

then hope she believe ba

initially she don, but then i told her more

aiya, say the person school + how i noe him lor.

:p so sorry luhhs.

but no choices uh.. -.-

then gei gei call ser worse. -.-

then come home saw chou chou online! :D

so chatted abit w her. she gg have her hair cutt.

lol girl is worse than shit* hahah

u noe wad i mean.

to others : im a girl too, im not insulting anythin.

i called him D:

yeah we chatted for 11.15 mins

i can tell i miss him alot.

he doesn i noe. but somehow..

i dono how t explain the kind of feelings

i forget wad i wanted to ask and tell.

how stupid can i be D':

wanting to talk t xiaojinling

but then dono how?! u_u

i hope xiaojinling alright. D:

不知道为什么，我要那么想你。

我讨厌自己想你，但没办法。

现在，我不知道我们还可以像以前一样？

那种感觉来联络。

maybe i really lost hope in u..

NETS. D:

my grannie is sick D:

get well soon DD:

xiaojinling.

ni yao jiayou(:

mood: nostalgic D:

updated:xiangs

Labels: 我们会跟以前一样吗？ maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 11:12 PM

Thursday, February 19, 2009

missing all these.
i may have done wrong. but its regretful i if lost anyone.

missing these. school days D:

[19.2.09]
hmm today met lj yo cwp.
ltr came back home for badminton session!
whoo hoo!~
played w 2 brothers.
i got run hor(:
and yeaps my skills did not tui bu.
it jin bu! whee!~ maybe becos
nowadays i bother to move arnd
so i sweat and run alot :D
yeaps! first step to jian fei! hahah~
eh eh, jian fei is not a dui lian de shi qing lor.
who wans to be fat, nobody rite.
so if u cant choose at first, the most is work harder wad.
(:
tml playing w cousins:D

bu dong wei she me,
hui zhe me mao dun.
wei le shen me, sui dou hui zhe me de mao dun.
bu neng xiang zhe me duo.
ying wei zi ji ying gai zhi dao.
hui you zi zhi zhi ming.

xiao jin ling 真的要多多加油

i really like to talk alot.
it just tat if ppl who doesnt like t talk,
they may feel annoyed.
but those who like,
have alr left.
i tot i can tell u, but it seems like u doesnt care.
or u dint even recieved.
maybe its not meant for u to see.

mood: fresh (:
updated:xiangs

Labels: 自知之明. maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 4:29 AM

Monday, February 16, 2009

this is just like my mood.
getting cool and getting hot up.
D:

幸福是一个水晶球
从天空掉了下来掉到地上
摔的粉碎碎片到处都是
人们都会捡到一片幸福的碎片
有人捡到的多
有人捡到的少
但是没有人全部捡到...
- extracted from nat ho's blog.
i think this is v real o.0

[17.2.09]
stayed at home
was too hot alr
cant go down play w meilin
so stayed at home.):
argh wanna play badminton man.
i haven played for months? years?
my bro say he don wan play w me liaos ):
cos i dint play for so long sure tui bu le D:
wth~ hais he everyday play sure jin bu de lor -.-
lalalas im sooo bored!!
nobody to msg also D:
im goin t bored to death alr D:
nth for me to watch or play
how sad can this be. -.-
had the whole morning walk arnd and doin abit of exercise.
how long can i do?
will i have this determination everyday?
hais must!! its a must! (:
well hopefully! JIAYOUS:D

lalalas im so missing
northpoint.

加油，加油，加油

im not thick skin. i not proud of myself
its just tat i couldnt forget.
i couldnt forget my past.
i kept thinking tat im still in my old days
having to have a kinda glory past.
but its all the past.
somehow i miss the past, i miss myself being useful
i miss trainings and having teammates
i cant get out of the past.
im really not..
~~vain~~.
i wish i can tell u this.
but will u listen?

mood: bored. D:
updated:xiangs

Labels: lowly. maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 7:31 PM

lovees eeyore and crayon shinchan(:
this eeyore got 2 colors 0.o
light and dark blue on either side of the face
*special:D

[16.2.09]
yeaps today morning did chores
then went tamp in the afternoon alone -.-
then came home.
mum was home earli.
sians -ded ):
watched show w mum at home.
lol aiya she siao w "jiayou jin shun alr".
last time ask her watch she don wan.. zz
lalalas tml maybe gg down ser / meilin there
hmm wann to jian fei!!! must da da zhuo yun dong!
hope i zhen qi yi dian.
must duo duo nu li.
tiianxiin and mh not feeling well..
aww must duo duo xiao xin
and take good cares!
xi wang faster recover(:

xiao jin ling!
wan sui!(:

NETS.

nth seems rite.
i dono why. maybe
all along i felt lone.
):

just thinking of wad to do in my life.
how things gonna change.
why is there changes.

mood: thoughts. :/
updated:xiangs

Labels: lpxx. maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 1:09 AM

Friday, February 13, 2009

[14.2.09]
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY people!!!(:
heard abt my auntie gg in labour today!!
whooohoo!~ so cool valentines' babygal! whee!~
hope she have a smooth and safe labour!(:
staying at home.
don feel like gg mum shop.
but rather if he's there i may consider.

another day for people who are single aint it.
but well, it not really QIN REN JIE lor
it can be also YOU QIN REN JIE hor!
so yupps those who are single can go out together de
and have lots of fun just like those qinrens~
hahah! yeaps(:

for those couples, it envious that they have partners to celebrate
and spend this day w them.
but it suppose that everyone will have this day coming..
it depends whether its early or late..
so people JIAYOUS!(:

i had this weird dream
should i say bad or good?
my eyes were watery when i woke up.
and i nv felt this real.
i wish this were to be true.
but inside the dream
nth is true in reality. D:

NETS.

mood: average :/
updated:xiangs

Labels: yups this is how i wish. maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 8:19 PM

Thursday, February 12, 2009

[12.2.09]
meet them in the afternoon.
then went to get stuffs at khatib sheng siong
then headed to my hse(:
prepare for like 2-3 hrs..
then brought the things to faci hse:D
got swimming pool! whee!~
lalalas~
then waited for everythin to get ready
and we started!:D
full full.
lol after tat went t swim pool
had a good talk w socks(:
then irene and coolyan came
cooked for them.
lol! stop laughing at my reaction! D:
hahah! lalalas~
happy happy and went off.
then alighted at semb for mum (:
- nv take any picture):

[13.2.09]
lijuan coming my hse to make chocolate(:
hahah! now waiting for her
ltr gg to tampines to buy smth (:
sat in the bus till like -.-
then went to tamp find for lj and my stuffs:D
ate lunch there too(:
then gg back saw yang. 0.o hahah
lalalas had funn day w her(:

xiaojinling!(:

NETS. -.-

我还以为。
但只是我的想法.

thousand thoughts
thousand thinks
i dono wad should i do.

mood: lethargic D:
updated:xiangs

Labels: 普天同爱.maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 8:12 PM

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

[11.2.09]
went uncle place in the morning
went bugis after tat.
then went tampines to find my great grannie w my grannie
lol.
tired. + nausea.
argh ):
then went SSC in the nite.

i will fall in love again
末一天
希望能跟你度过.

wonder how is xiaojinling le ):
hope feeling better ba(:

NETS D:

valentine's coming..
______________

重唱過氣聖詩　

走過人潮仍舊愉快

全世界大合唱　

只得我聽見了天籟

而我最怕逛街　

被浮誇燈飾出賣

大眾驚我孤單不快　

路過商店繼續放大　

節日姿態

期望世界並沒聖誕

誰亦叫我妒忌的一晚

出席聯歡晚會　

將禮物再揀

並無對象可給我掛單

難道這晚特別怕冷

人牆內擦過　

寂寞應該慣

這座城圍著倒數快樂時間

誰又發覺　

在我天台我獨個面對夜闌

給我自己禮物都不算最慘　

過熱鬧聖誕

朋友約我晚餐　

恐怕人前胡亂大醉

人造繁盛狀態　

只不過替愛侶點綴

來派對去慶祝　

若然不小心淌淚

令到親友揮之不去　

被我一個破壞節日　

我亦不對期望世界並沒聖誕

誰亦叫我妒忌的一晚

出席聯歡晚會　

將禮物再揀

並無對象可給我掛單

難道這晚特別怕冷

人牆內擦過　

寂寞應該慣

這座城圍著倒數快樂時間

誰又發覺　

在我天台我獨個面對夜闌

給我自己禮物都不算最慘　

過熱鬧聖誕

凡人互相安慰　

而我一位對著電腦

想像每個教堂　

別人為伴侶禱告　

我卻聽不到

明日世界並沒聖誕

誰亦叫我妒忌的一晚

火樹銀花也許　

給我望過一眼

而明亮風景太燦爛

難道這晚特別怕冷

能隨便買醉　

便活多一晚

這樂園唯獨我一個是逃犯

只好細看　

萬個燈膽照下去　

夜也是藍

不快樂不快樂數多次也許　

已踏入聖誕

比較露宿一個老者　

我亦未算冷

普天同爱：黄宗泽

mood: unpleasant D:

updated:xiangs

Labels: how i wish. maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 2:33 AM

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

[10.2.09]

went SSDC w ml today.

then went t ahma hse in the afternoon.

im really sorry tianxin):

well came back for a while to do up my resume for CC

well so coincidence, nadhirah was one of the agent.

cool man -.-

hahah! anw chatted w ppl before i headed to ahma hse.

well sians really is sians

study sians holiday sians

hais )): i wish i have half a million.

to pay off the hse for my parents.

and well, let them enjoy life):

谁不是那么想.

不来，不想，失望。

因为认为，我不能在期待什么了。

xiaojinling

stay strong, gambat'e!(:

god bless u (:

NETS.

noe wads most fragile?

answer: life

nobody knows wad will happen tml..

mood: imiss D:

updated:xiangs

Labels: blocked.maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 5:58 AM

Saturday, February 7, 2009

gg semb park(:

my art piece(:

ahahaha(:

took when waiting(:

[6.2.09]

meet irene at 330

went amk and ate at sumo house(:

went t find coolyan at CC

wow motherly seh. the kids soo CUTE!(:

went khatib check stuffs

brought icecream. waited for police

came my house.

cousins came too.

after they all gone,

mum told me smth.

))':

culdnt slp till 5am in the morning.

[7.2.09]
woke up ate fried rice.
afternoon went cousin hse.
went t the park and played(:
took lots of photos:D
and ya, went back to BBQ
almost all the cousin came.
and had fun BBQ-ing + eating :D
"mama" birthday, so we celebrated for her(:
then after eat, watch "severance"
then watched them play ruaby.
so ya.. nth much to be done.
stayed till 12am, celebrated for ah sheng birthday:D
then they play till almost 2am in the morning.
went home to slp becos there no place to slp alr.
and ya(:
dint took all the cousins photo ):

should hhavve taken when they gamble 0.o

hahah :P lalalas have a nice day(:

[8.2.09]
woke up arnd 12pm.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINGSHENG!!(:
my dearest brother.
wish all the best and best wishes(:
lovees.
well did chores.
they went mum shop
dint wanna go.
i doubt he will be there.
even if he's there i also wont go.
i dono how t show my expression.
i don wanna let him see that i don even care.
cos i will act this way.
i miss him alot. yes i do.
but he'll nv know. ):
im sorry guys that i called ur so late in the nite just to tell u smth
not important. so ya im sorry.

我只希望，
你打一次电话给我，
让我把所有的话说完。
心痛，想念，无奈。

NETS.
still nets?

xiaojinling, i nid u this sec. ):
im superly sadd-ded.

mood: lethargic.):
updated:xiangs

Labels: ur e missing piece. maybe?

no matter wad we become.. 8:49 PM