[25.11.08]
went sch. chatted w missy
went off at the first break
went home slack
and meet ser to swim.
home swt home after tat.
sorry irene, coolyan, meibao
and thanks dongjie, jose-hua, ser n lj
i tot things wont become like tat
but it does
maybe i noe its my fault
maybe im just thinking too much
wher were u when i needed you
where were people when i tot they will be there for me
nobody ever said anything
nobody ever said they will be there for me
i was there for everyone
maybe thats what i suppose it to be
maybe i wasnt a good fren of anyone
maybe i was too harsh on my words
maybe i focus too much on my new frens
i tot i have been a good fren
but well maybe i wasnt as i tot..
i tot i was there when people needed me
i tot i was one who brought joy
i tot nobody will bring sorrow
but i think everythin was wrong
maybe its still early to return
maybe its too late to return
maybe nobody appreciates
all of these were lies
just wad i have done
were all useless things
just wad i have did
were worthless..
maybe my effort paid out were of no use
were of no appreciation
were of no feelings
nobody knows how i think
just as i tot i shouldn trust anyone
maybe wad we tot we have shared
were all things on the surface
wad we have shared were all considered the past
wad we have shared were useless.
an apology doesnt mean anythin when you don mean it
an apology doesnt mean you were sorry
an apology doesnt apply when you don take actions
maybe my apology sounds deaf to u
maybe your apology seems useless to me
yes maybe everyone were at fault
maybe nobody even care abt me
maybe nobody appreciate the times
when i were there
when i give in
when i shared
no point..
a promise to be made
yet a promise was broken
there's no point in saying so..
i tot that everythin was different
i tot tat your were really my true-est
i tot your can be the one for me in my darkest days
but none.
yes none. wad i think was useless
wad i guess was wrong
everything doesnt change
everythin was the same.
i tot i doubt it
but now i think i believe it.
a friend leaves
and a true fren stays
i think i doesn even have a true fren on my own.
nobody pities me
i don need pities
maybe all along its my fault
maybe all along you dint even noe wher your fault lies
i tot close-ness could be good
but being left out at every point of time
thats pathetic.
maybe i dint join in.
but i dint get a chance to join in
all my words and actions
were deaf and blindness to your
maybe its not my place to be in there
to be left out alone.
i think its the best way.
i don wan to be hurt being wad i have always felt
ever since last time.
i know you tried to amend smth
but how much did anyone put in
am i not worth that big effort
i guess im not..
i was wrong in everythin
i was wrong. i nv will make an effort to salvage
i nv will make an effort to save.
i guess like wad i have said
friends will leave
but true friends say
if you choose to leave
so be it
i will not want to be the one giving in
putting in effort to be in the group
to save all the conflicts
to worry for anyone
i noe nth is worth
i noe nobody will appreciates
i noe im always the oni one.
i noe i have learnt my lesson.
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tiianxiin_ yeah! i uploaded the pic:D
panjiaqi_ hahah! okays okays i will. i copy paste alr. i finish i post it:D
mood:unpleasant. :'S
updated:xiangsLabels: nth can be the same? maybe?
4:12 AM
